This job is straight up stressing me the fuck out. After that little meeting we had on Tuesday, I’ve been on fucking edge. These two weren’t here when I had to literally change this school around from the ground up. I tried to work the staff that was put there and develop them, that went no good and got rid of them. It was for the better of the site. Introduced a new fun culture to the parents and children, that was a success. Reached out to the right people for guidance, that was pretty damn good too.
But these niggas… they want to fire me. Over some shit that isn’t even my fault. I don’t hire the fucking people. I don’t even get a chance to meet any of them before they are sent to my site. I have to develop fucking idiots and turn them into some top level staff. It’s like turning a turd into solid fucking gold. Even if you spray paint gold onto shit, it’s still shit.
I almost want to quit. I want to quit.
But, I can’t. Just too many kids I would let down. But this is just insane. I need to finish school ASAP and be a certified teacher already.
So I was pretty much, 1 hour late turning in my payroll. There were so many things going on, as soon as I took a step outside my office, people needed my help for a multitude of shit. The biggest ones were, the Young Authors Culmination event and this little girl that needed to be escorted to this other after school program at the park.
Like would you let a 4th grader walk down the street by herself?
Fuck no, you wouldn’t. But my job doesn’t give a fuck about shit like that. Even though we are supposed to be here for the kids. I need a break. Vacation is so far away. 6 more days. Lord help me.